Thursday, November 28, 2013

Today I am Grateful

It’s incredible how a month, a week, a day, an hour, a minute or even a second can change your life forever. The past few months have taken me on a roller coaster ride consisting of extreme highs and lows that have changed who I am for the rest of my life. It’s amazing how life works; how the Louise I knew a few months back isn't the Louise that I am today.

I always thought it was ridiculous when I heard people say, ‘you chose your own happiness’. But life and circumstances will always teach you what a phrase can mean to you.

There were times over the past few months when I didn't know whether to cry or laugh, so like the crazy person that I am, I did both. But because I’m a person who likes to be happy, I will do whatever I can and immerse myself into the superficial, mindless things (magazines, nail polish, the real housewives of...) that make me feel the light of joy spread throughout my body and remove that dragging feeling of sadness. But sometimes, you have to allow yourself to feel sadness when it is due, so that you can get past whatever you are going through and feel better. And I will always feel better because I like to feel better. I love to laugh. I love to smile. I like to be happy because that is what and who I chose to be.

The events of the past few months have confirmed to me that I’m really an adult. (Me being an adult has been confirmed for years, but sometimes the fact that I’m a grownup still catches me by surprise.) I’ve been faced with real adult situations that have helped me to take stock of what I’m really made of.

I’ve learned that although I thought I was strong, I can actually be stronger than the strongest strong that I thought I was. I’ve learned that even though I like to be strong, I don’t always have to be. I’ve learned that even though things aren’t so good at the moment, they could always be worse. And I've learned that nothing bad is ever so bad when you have so much love in your life.

If you are blessed, like I am, bad times will bring out the goodness in the people surrounding you. I am truly, deeply loved and this isn’t a surprise to me because the people in my life are all reflections of who I am. I‘m surrounded by love, loyalty and a group of exceptionally special individuals who are a testament to the person of which I am proud and grateful to be.

When I sat down to begin writing, I meant to focus specifically on what I was grateful for, but the wordsmith of my heart and soul didn't cooperate with me. I like my blog to be a place of laughter and positivity, but I also want it to be true to who I am and if I’m going through something, you will see it here.

I feel like every thanksgiving I’m redundantly grateful for the same exact thing; the loves in and of my life who are near and far. And this thanksgiving, I am especially grateful for the same and for the blessings of life and love. I’m grateful for this day and for the days to follow. And I’m grateful to have you to love me.

I love you!

Happy Thanksgiving to you all!

~Louise C.

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